Everything is changing. Years go by and nothing much changes. And all of a sudden everything is different. You are different.

I am not the same girl.

Ever notice how a million eyes can be watching you. But the one you really want could care less? One person out of a million. It is never the one you want. How twisted is that? I just want someone to say they are proud of me. I have heard it a lot from many people who love and admire me. Many people love and admire me. I am blessed. But the words hit more when it’s from the one(s) you want.

I didn’t sleep well last night. There is too much energy building up inside of me. As someone who has had low energy for years and years. It feels foreign to me. But I like how it feels.

This weekend is going to change everything for me. I know it.

In other news. I feel a weight heavy from the burdens of this world. The war, genocide and starvation of multiple countries. The loss of empathy and compassion for our fellow man is quite fucked up. Maybe it was never there in the first place? Humans truly are despicable. I knew this year would amplify this energy. And I really hope to do a lot more good for my fellow humans in the years to follow. This weekend is just a snippet of what I am going to be capable of. Watch me.